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Warning: Some freaky shit lies within. Please go prepared.
You wanna know something? I am a weird creature. But I'm sure you all have figured out by now I am just a horrible cthulu eldritch abomination sitting behind a keyboard by now.

But on Wednesday, my mother yelled at me. It was a mixture of things. Things I didn't like. All the things that prove my mother doesn't truly know me, except for what depresses me and pisses me off. I spent all of Wednesday wanting to kill myself or thinking I could run away from this mess or similar things.

But then I woke up yesterday morning. I woke up angry. Spirited. Spiteful.

I want to prove my mother wrong. Her and her goddamn stupid hopelessness. While I tend to think hope is a poison, it is only so when someone is giving it to you and then taking it away. It is expected to wane away on it's own, but brought on by someone else and then removed from them, it is rather venomous. I should know. My mom did it to me.

My mom is forcing me to go to school. I'm going to do online school. So I'm either going to be at the library everyday or mom is going to get me internet down here.

But I really don't care about the school. I'm not going for myself. I'm going to shut my harpy bitch of a mother up. While I am hoping that I'll be able to get my diploma in art. Maybe visual, but probably graphic. That may be the only reason I'm going to college is that I can get what I want. Another reasons why this all ridiculous is because my mom is acting like once I get a diploma/degree, I'm going to have jobs pouring in. I may end up stuck with some stupid mediocre job. My mom doesn't seem to realize that.

I'm going to be using the internet to upload porn to Amazon and upload poetry and prose to some magazines and see if they get published for money. I'm also going to use it to upload more stuff to my Redbubble and see if I can have a transient online job that allows a lot of freedom or maybe if I can get paid for reviews or something. I am also going to try and talk to my programmer friend to see if we can work on some of the ideas we have together for games. Though we'd just be indieand all our games would be mostly free. Maybe we'd get hired by Steam or Sony or someone and be commissioned for some games.

I hope to see you guys again soon.


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techgnotic Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2015
Happy Birthday!!

happy DA B-day :3 
HugQueen Featured By Owner Sep 5, 2014   Writer
Thank you for the favorite. <3 Your webcam made me giggle. c:
pa3kpanda Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Thanks for the fave!!
ij386 Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Your webcam is hilarious!
UltimaMage578 Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2014
pa3kpanda Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2014  Student Digital Artist
thanks for the fave!
Yami08 Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
thanks for the fav!! :D
Mishberries Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2014
Hey Seeka, Thank you so much for the fave :heart: Really appreciate it!
UltimaMage578 Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2014
Queen-Kitty Featured By Owner May 20, 2014   Photographer
Thank you for the favorites!  I'm glad you enjoyed them!
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