Heysers

Hey guys! What is up?


I'm doing... fine. I have my good days, then I have my bad...

Though it's more like: I have my good moments then mom has to bitch about something to ruin my entire damn day.

I'm good and I'm trying to get through this. I'm trying to write a novel. And the porn thing may or may not work out. I'm tempted to drop the entire idea altogether.

I just... I just wish that this was easier. Or that maybe my mom would change back to who she was before we moved down here.

I do have my days where I want to kill myself. I do. But I'm strong, or at least I try to be. But the longer I go without internet or someone to answer my calls or call me (which is okay, I understand my best friends have lives)  I tend to believe my worst fear has come true. That I'm all alone. That I'm being forgotten. That no one cares. I think everyone has those fears, but I think they effect me more than others.

But I'm strong. I'm sure I'll be able to do something sometime soon... I'm looking into stuff.

Hope to see you guys again soon.