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Hey guys, what's up?

First off, my heart goes out to all the people of France. What happened in France shouldn't have happened. But what happened and what is happening shouldn't. I hope everything goes better. I hope there are heroes to these villains against humanity. And if I can't believe in heroes, than I'll believe in civilians.

Nothing much up with me. Pretty much the same as last week. Stuck in this god awful place and trying my best not to scream about it. Trying things to make very little amounts of money. It's absolutely ridiculous what I'm doing I think, and I think I should quit sometimes. But I should keep up some hope. Some, despite the fact I think hope is utterly poisonous to my entire body and my mind. But I am trying. Trying means I am living.

I am thinking about really publishing my porn before I move out. I have very little means of earning cash in other ways. And it just takes a few drafts. I can upload some of my stuff with some edits. I just need to create the covers and do the drafts and everything will be cool. It's just I wanted to use the porn for after I moved out.

Also, anyone want to be the betareaders for my porn? You may or may not be paid, but you certainly get free porn. Also, if any of my pseudonyms get popular enough, I may want to get someone to do audiobooks for my porn anthologies... if epeople do that. Do writers make audiobooks for their porn? Well, if so, I need to get someone to do that for me. My voice isn't sexy, even when I try. I mean, I can get dirty and stuff, but my voice is too weirdly high (gay) pitched to sound erotic. So, while I can write amazing sensual things, I shouldn't really say them.

I'm still going to wait until I have five completed drafts of everything before I begin uploading porn.


But on a better note, while I am probably not going to Yamacon (money, maybe some drama) I am still trying to plan for some conventions in the future. I'm not sure if there are anymore until April, which is when ETSUcon happen (which has gained the cutesy Japanese-inspired pronunciation et-su) and MTAC happening in... May? I'm thinking about those.

And I'm thinking about lolita. I have all these dresses in my lolita folder (I totally need to add some blouses. I lack blouses to go with all my jumperskirts) and I'm planning all these coords and taking pieces here and there and adding them to something else or having a bunch of fun.

I do love lolita and wish I could get it now. Have lolita on my wishlist and such.

My dream dress is Haenuli's Little Prince in the Fantasia colorway. LOOK AT IT. LOOK AT ITS MARVELOUSNESS.